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life as we know it

life as we know it won't last forever, immortality is a part of life, in every aspect. I have learnt to appreciate each moment as it approaches individually. Usually the thought of inconsistancy and change alters anxiety and worry. However, as this year progresses, I am vastly adapting to an assortment of changes and alterations in life. With allowing the extra anxiety of not knowing, we are unconsciously opening new doors for ourselves. If I didn't allow for these changes, I wouldn't have the opportunities I currently have or be surrounded by the wonderful people I surround myself with everyday!

xxx

An eventful evening.

Today was such a beautiful day, it was so warm outside, perfect tanning weather, I sat outside in the early AM and made lecture notes out in the sun. After which, I had a training day at an organisation called paradise kids where I am doing some work experience working with children suffering grief and loss. It shall be rather interesting. The rest of the day was taken up by a brisk walk through the mountain and text book reading. A quite productive day. Last night was a charity event which my parents were sponsoring for Jamie Myer productions. It was an eventful evening.
Other then a night out in the city, I have recently discovered that my room is inhabited by a huge spider. Im not a huge spider fan, or a fan of anything with more legs then me at that (other than my dog moo), so I spent the evening in the guest bedroom directly opposite mine. I couldn't fathom sharing my bedroom with a spider for the night. So off I went, packed up my things and tra la la off to the spare room. Expecting the intruder to have scurried off the next day, i was rudely mistaken. The spider has migrated to my bathroom above my mirror. I decided to be a bigger person and make peace with my new found spider friend, he is welcome to leave when he pleases. I feel I have matured a lot in regards to this situation.

Valentines

Valentines day is creeping up. Weather or not you have a valentine, this holiday should me awaited and celebrated with utter splendour. It is only once a year that we get to dedicate an entire day to celebrating the act of love. It may be love to your significant other, your family, friends, your pet or even yourself. We all have love in our lives somewhere. I believe it's important for us all to feel love and love in return, as love is an act that is completely irreplaceable. Without love, we would know no kindness or learn how to yearn towards another being. Despite valentine's day, this coming week is rather chaotic in terms of my uni work load. I have multiple presentations to prepare as well as various lab reports and mid semester exams to prepare for. la di da. So there is lots going on and quite hectic. However, business keeps my mind going at a comfortable level for me. I like being busy and continually on task with various things. It makes me feel somewhat productive. And productivity is imperative.

normal Days

I am feeling incredibly disappointed as to how I am allowing myself to be overwhelmed with how busy my life is becoming. I am allowing myself to rush around missing what is really going on. I expect people to grasp and follow my hunger for life and all it brings with it with a vigorous attitude, however, I have not stopped to notice my surroundings myself. In turn, I cannot expect anyone else to do so. I am getting to caught up in the importance of the future and dwelling on yesterday when really I should be focusing on what is surrounding me. The beauty and treasures that are the unexpected niceties that life hands us. Amongst making plans and all the chaos, we must remember to surround ourselves with the love and light of those who we love and who love us in return. Act kind and graciously to even a complete stranger because it is purely in our nature and to ooze our sparkle for the world to watch is awe as we shine from our soul all the way out. It is hard to decipher the baffling amount of things we miss whilst in the midst of our day to day plans. Recently, I have allowed myself to forget how important this is. I'm not saying it doesn't happen. I often have to stop in my tracks, take a deep breath and remember what is truly important. It is understandable that we get busy and things come up. But the biggest mistake we can make is to be so consumed in pointless manoeuvres in contrast to experiencing the joys of life. This is how you can quite easily loose your sparkle.

Normal day, let me be aware of the treasure you are. Let me learn from you, love you, bless you before you depart. Let me not pass you by in quest of some rare and perfect tomorrow. Let me hold you while I may, for it may not always be so. One day I shall dig my nails into the earth, or bury my face in the pillow, or stretch myself taut, or raise my hands to the sky and want, more than all the world, your return. ~Mary Jean Iron

Don't judge, just live, love and enjoy!

Well, all back at uni for a fresh new semester. There is always something exciting and fresh about a new semester. I think it's because I like to take every opportunity that is handed to me to create a fresh start in one way or another. With a new start comes new goals, opportunities, experiences, beliefs and declarations. I like to take every chance I have to improve in the moment as best I can. The past month or so has been rather eventful for me. I have finally made a great group of new friends at Uni who are much like me and are very similar in our appreciation for what we intend to further our studies in whilst attaining a great hunger to learn, our aspirations and ambitions are much the same and they are an enjoyable group of positive people who I love to surround myself with.

As well as loving the life of a student more and more, I have a rather busy few weeks ahead of me with other aspects of life's niceties. Next Saturday night is the Bond University Student Ball which is very exciting and I recently decided on a dress which is tres cutesy. Also, I have a number of events planned for my birthday celebrations which are coming up. I love that my birthday is placed in the Spring time. la la la. There are also a couple of birthday parties for my close friends to come.

I have recently discovered an appreciation for living life in its present moment. I have learned to do this from removing all forms of judgement from what I may be experiencing at a particular moment. In correspondence to allowing myself to believe that an experience is either good or bad, positive or negative, I merely acknowledge its being. Doing this I am able to understand that what exactly I am feeling in that particular moment is helpful in some way and serves a purpose of its own instead of contemplating how it should be, or what should be happening but isn't. Things don't always happen how they are suppose to, they aren't suppose to otherwise we wouldn't learn how to come with the wirly winds that life provides us. For me, this was incredibly hard to accept being a totally obnoxious control freak I held that everything was in my power if I allowed it to be based upon my persistence and levels of control, painfully so. This prophecy to me was, and still to some extent still is my ultimate reality and without it, everything would turn to utter chaos filled psychobabble. Ickkk. however, the process of adapting a more mindful state of mind is something that is important to me. This is more so allowing instead of resisting what is currently going on around you or for you.

Ways in which you can get more in touch with your thoughts and feelings lies in your behaviour. Take exercise as an excellent example. Your going for a long run around the country side. You have your Ipod pumping through your head, your thinking about a deadline you have tomorrow, your worrying, so much so that wrinkle are already forming. Suddenly, you trip over a rock and fell to the ground. Your cursing in your head, how did that happen, now the rest of my run will not be as effective ect. If instead of thinking about the past or the future, you were observing your beautiful, natural surroundings, possibly watching your feet as they hit the soft deep dirt, smelling the freshly cut grass, observing your surroundings for the natural magnificence it is then maybe, you would have noticed the large rock coming up in the middle of your tracks. Your behaviour and day to day activities is a perfect way to adapt a more adapting and mindful way of embracing the 'now', this moment. You will really notice the difference whilst just observing that around you and analysing its mere being, its presence, life. its yours, nobody else's appreciate it and love it.

Curiosity killed the cat

I have currently decided that I have some changes to make in my life. I always strive to achieve my goals as best I can and Im a firm believer in pushing yourself that extra mile to extend your limits. Which is is a trait I hold highly and think that everyone has the ability to extend their personal best in anything they do. We often surprise ourselves in that we can and will succeed much further then what we suspected. I see the world as a giant ball of glitter and we are given so many oppertunities in life and we would be practically insane not to take advantage of them! I think its imortant to see everything as you wish to, create your own reality no matter what anybody else tells you....im my opinion, taking life too seriously is almost as sinful as gluttony or envy! nobody wants worry wrinkles at the prime of their life, even if you are into the whole cougar ideal. I have learned to never take myself or life too seriously; there are too many serious aspects to life that can obsorb our worries.

For instance, I take my work seriously, I take social and political matters seriously, I take sparkles seriously as well as animal rights. I do not however let a serious and sombre attitude decide how I will structure my life. There is too much fun to be had, I want to play, make sandcastles, be a princess, go on adventures with pirates, falling in love, have glitter fights and dance in a forest. there is plenty of time to be serious when your retired. You shouldn't care about what others have to say about you, having said that, I have further grasped the concept of a purpose driven life! There are still times I wish I would never grow up, in fact, I do in fact never want to become a grown up I wish I could run away with Peter pan and the lost boys and live forver in Neverland.